Well, it's already been four months--the end of the very first university term. Funny, it feels as if it's passed by really quickly. Suddenly, summer and life before seems so far away.
...That isn't a line from a song.
I think I've settled down now. I'm not really sure what that means, but it doesn't feel as strange anymore--the notion of living here, I mean. Sometimes I get a little homesick, but I find that it's much easier to forget when you don't have things reminding you of the ties you have to home.
School has been tougher than I thought and it's worn down on my self esteem at times, but I think it's been worth the while. I've grown a lot more independent, that's for sure. But being here has forced me to confront where I want to head in the future and I realize that there are some things more important than academics and running that sort of race.
There's something restless in me. I don't know what it is, but I feel as if there's something I need to go and find--some places I need to explore. Despite how cheesy the thought sounds, it's not the first time this sort of restlessness has come about, but it's stronger now. Maybe this is where the travelling bit comes in. But, we'll see, I suppose. It's difficult to predict where life will take you.
On a lighter note, there are a few amusing things that have happened:
1. The other day, I was walking back to my dorm when I came across a very blatant statue built from blocks of ice on a field that one must pass to go back to residence: someone had erected a giant penis out of snow. With testicles.
2. A few days later, I was walking along that same path when the wind suddenly picked up at gale force and smacked me on the face with a flurry of snow. At that precise moment, some guy was walking towards me, intent on heading in the opposite direction. As the blast of wind whacked me unceremoniously and caused my head to whip sideways, he smirked and continued on his way. Bastard.
3. At the end of every term, we are required to submit course surveys as a form of feedback regarding the lecturers and course material. Since the class I was writing one for was relatively large, class was located in a large lecture hall containing rows upon rows of desks, every row built on a platform a step higher than the last.
My groupmate--which I had been working with for most of the semester--looked around and saw that other people were passing their surveys down row by row until it reached the bottom where the surveyors were collecting the questionnaires. She asked for mine and passed it down to the guy in front of her. He nodded and passed it down to the guy in front of him. But as the boy who was now holding the sheets tapped the girl in front of him in turn, she suddenly whipped around and screamed, "
Excuse me?"
At this, she grabbed the sheets and slammed them onto the side table beside her, effectively wrinkling the survey sheets. Strangely, instead of continuing the passing down of the sheets, she stood up abruptly, stalked all the way down to the bottom of the lecture hall and handed it to a surveyor.
At this point, the guy in front of us turned around and went, "She didn't have to do that."
I had similar lines of thinking and replied, "She could've just said no. Or she could've continued handing it down."
My groupmate agreed, "Yeah. Is she mad because we asked her to continue passing it down?"
As we puzzled over what could possibly be a rational explanation for the girl's mysterious outburst, said girl came stalking back to her seat. I suppose the guy was feeling guilty and so he attempted to tap her on the shoulder to ask her if she was alright. However, the poor boy's luck took an even sourer turn when she whipped around again and said vehemently, "
Fuck off!"
Which caused the rest of us to ease back into our seats in stunned silence.
...I'm open to any interpretations of the event.
Now, time for grocery shopping (which shall be done at one in the morning).
Final note: ~
scuffed gets honorable mention for her
stellar [insert smirk here] piece done for ~
astereilla's birthday. The picture's not available here (I would think the birthday girl would die of embarassment), but oh, it made my day.
